There are days when i sit and wonder if any of this is worth it. Putting my whole life and emotions out there for the world to read... view... and judge ... there's been a lot of the latter.
But occasionally i get a message from someone that my blog has reached them or helped them and that helps me. It reminds me that i'm not the only person experiencing these feelings and emotions, and that my blog might be an outlet for others as well.
So i ask you this... if you read my blog, please message me or give feedback occaisonally.
Saturday, January 31, 2015
And then she was 5...
I cant believe i'm saying this... but my child is five!!!Her birthday was actually a few weeks ago, but between weddings and the plague taking over our house, i haven't been able to post. In fact shes at my parent's house right now since we are both sick.
heres a little about Langston:
Nicknames: Lani, Lady Bug, Toom Time Bears
How old are you? 5
What is your favorite color? purple, pink, and blue
What is your favorite animal? Benz (our dog)
What is your favorite book? Pete the Cat
What is your favorite TV show? Hey Jessie and Dino Thunder Power Rangers
What is your favorite movie? Frozen
What is your favorite song? Let it go and Turn Down for What
What is your favorite food? Cheese Sticks, and McDonaldsWhat is your favorite drink? Sprite
What is your favorite breakfast food? Hash Browns
What is your favorite snack? Fruit Snacks and Raspberries
What is your favorite outfit? My Elsa Dress
What is your favorite game? Heads UpWhat is your favorite toy? My Dolls
Who is your best friend? Olivia, Addison, and Weston
What is your favorite thing to do? Watch Netflix
What is your favorite thing to do outside? play bubbles
What is your favorite holiday? Christmas
What do you like to take to bed with you at night? My Daddy Doll
Where is your favorite place to go? Monster Yogurt
What is your favorite restaurant? McDonalds
Where do you want to go on vacation? Mexico
What do you want to be when you grow up? A princess and a Doctor and a Librarian
What did you do on your birthday? we had dinner with Nini and Pappi at Chuckee Cheese, then had a power ranger party at Bounce U
Friday, January 9, 2015
The Quiet is So Loud
After being in a relationships for almost 1/2 of my life (legitimately 17 of my 32 years), being alone is sometimes devastating. There were times i would pray for quietness and alone time, and now my life is full of it.
At night when Lani goes to sleep, or in the morning before she wakes, all thats left is the quiet....the still... and more alone time than i ever knew existed.
You look for company, friends, family to help fill void, but when it all boils down to it, the void is still there. You look around and see no one.
And suddenly the quiet that I once craved, seems so loud. Almost deafening.
Dealing with feelings and emotions that i didn't expect to experience until my 70's or at least my 60's. But here i am 32 and living the life i never imagined, and experiencing a silence that seems so loud.
People keep telling me that 2015 will be a big year for me, and I hope that is true
At night when Lani goes to sleep, or in the morning before she wakes, all thats left is the quiet....the still... and more alone time than i ever knew existed.
You look for company, friends, family to help fill void, but when it all boils down to it, the void is still there. You look around and see no one.
And suddenly the quiet that I once craved, seems so loud. Almost deafening.
Dealing with feelings and emotions that i didn't expect to experience until my 70's or at least my 60's. But here i am 32 and living the life i never imagined, and experiencing a silence that seems so loud.
People keep telling me that 2015 will be a big year for me, and I hope that is true
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